Facing My Greatest Fear
“Fears are educated into us, and can, if we wish, be educated out” (Karl Augustus Menninger). My first presentation experience happened last year when I was in EAP classes. I had to present 5 minutes in front of my classmates and my professor about the fiction book that I chose to read from a list. I even now remember the fear that I had about the presentation. I was afraid that I would forget every single word that I had to say. I had never done a presentation before in my life, even in my first language, and this was the first time that I was going to speak in front of people. Thus, it was normal to become nervous and worried especially if English is not my first language. The only thing that was relaxing for me was the book that I chose to read because I really enjoyed the book when I read it. I have fear of public speaking and to become more comfortable with the presentations in front of a large audience is something that I know I will have to get into the habit for the future. My first presentation has helped me with the way I have faced public speaking and taught me how to become more comfortable while presenting.
Finally, it was the day that I had to do my presentation. I woke up in the morning with the stress of going to school and do my first presentation in front of my classmates. I reviewed my notes many times before going to the class. I was thoroughly prepared for it, but deep down I was nervous. I had never had that feeling before. I had read the book twice, and memorized everything I had to say. However, my body was not in my control, and I was shaking all the time. I was thinking of just drinking one bottle of beer before my presentation to make myself more relaxed; though, I am not very experienced with drinking. My friends told me that drinking beer would not help my presentation, and it will make me become more nervous. And so, I changed my mind. I tried to drink more water instead of alcohol. I did not notice myself that for no reason I was smiling all the time. I cannot remember how I drove to college that day because I kept trying to look at my notes to make myself ready.
I walked to the class. My hands started to get cold. I felt like I wanted to run away. As I sat in my chair in the classroom, I became more worried and anxious about what was going to happen later. After 15 minutes of panicking, class started. I was hoping that my classmates come late to the class or some of them not coming, so it would be more comfortable to present in front of just a few people. My professor asked everyone who wanted to go first. I preferred to be the first presenter for that day and finished that long day. Clearly nervous, I stood in front. My hands were shaking, and my face went red and felt like it was on fire. I had too much pressure on my head and started to give me a headache. I looked at every one, and I just noticed that class was almost full. The room was silent and everyone was looking at me. I began to introduce the book that I read. I was horrible for the first few seconds. Then, I tried my best to follow all the elements of a perfect presentation and say what I need to say. During the presentation, I got positive reactions from my classmates. The only thing that I forgot to say about the book was author’s style. It was not so bad after I finished my presentation, and I got excellent feedback from my professor that made me surprised. So, I succeeded in my presentation.
I know that my first presentation was far from perfect but at the same time, it went much better than I had expected. The day that I had my first presentation will stay in my memory forever. I learned that I have to believe in myself to achieve my goals and dreams.